http://avengedsevenfold666.buzznet.com/user/journal/ en-us http://avengedsevenfold666.buzznet.com/user/journal/2225441/ well i just told my sister that it's better that i should not go visit her this summer because she has her own life and i know that she is mad but she wont remember by the time she wakes up. i think it's better if i distance myself from my family. my mom hates me but i distenced myself from her about 9 years ago so i dont care that she hates me i care more about my dad but it sucks because i barlly get to talk with my dad his always at work or my stupid stepmom takes him away. i got to see my sister for a month about two years ago then see forgot about me. i dont talk to my stepbrothers that much so it wont hurt as much when i distance myself away. sometimes i fell like my friends dont really care about me i only have two friends who i could talk to about anything. but right after high school i want to start my own life if im still alife. i can not go one day without thinking about if it might be my last. but i think im ready for when the day that i die comes. one of my good friends tells me that i think to deep about life but things  happend in my life when i was younger so i think that is why i think so deep and go into some wierd dark place inside of me and get lost and scared because i cant remember who i am and why i fell this horrable pain in my heart.]]> Buzznet avengedsevenfold666 2008-04-20T19:12:00Z